Everyone is battling something. Some of us are just better at realizing this.
No, I’m not pregnant.
I’m fucking recovering
And I need to shit.
I have been SO hungry today for some reason. It scares me but I’m just trying to trust my body and give it what it needs. I’m making sure in staying hydrated as it’s really warm and dry outside today but I just have mad munchies! I’m not going to let it trigger a binge either I’m just going to have what my body needs. I still have no period so it’s going to be good for me. My body needs it - I need my body to function and if I give it what it needs it will return the favor.
I workout Monday - Friday at least 2 hrs a day and yet I still feel like it’s not good enough . It completely controls my life I hate it yet I just can’t stop .
Weekly Friday night battle in my head : to work out tomorrow making it 6 days this week or just take an active rest day . I feel guilty for sleeping in I’m so tired but ed just tells me to work harder FUCK YOU stupid thoughts that are constantly torturing me I hate this .
So tonight at dinner it was just me and my mom and we both made our food and half way through dinner my mom says that she’s 600 calories under her range today . She downloaded my Fittness pal or one of those and she’s always on her phone entering in her food . ARE YOU KIDDiNG ME?!?!? Do the past 5 years of an eating disorder and a relapse mean nothing to you?! I mean her but you get the point *ranting * and so anyways I told her not to tell me that and she says she’s just trying to be healthy . I know it’s not all about me and my disorder and she wants to be healthy - which she is , she ran a marathon a couple months ago- but really? I wanted to gag and cry and yell at her. But I just didn’t answer now I’m so upset
- What to do when your friend is talking about suicide
- What to do if someone you know is overdosing
- What to do if your friend is hurting themselves
- First Aid for self harm
Finding Therapy, Doctors, & Medication
- Something Fishy - How will I pay?
- Mental Health America - How do I find treatment?
- Free/Cheap Medication
- The Medicine Program
- Find a Therapist
- Good Therapy.org
- Insurance Issues
- Qualities and Skills of a Good Counselor
- The Difference Between a Psychiatrist, Psychologist, Therapist & Counselor
- Extreme Hunger During Recovery
- About Water Retention During Recovery
- 281 Reasons to Recover
- Relapse Prevention
- Dealing with Bloating in Recovery
- Bloating, Indigestion, & Feeling too full
- Talking to Others About Your Mental Health Issues
- Managing Stress
- Why You Must Eat
- What is ED Recovery?
- You have no obligation to be weighed
- Learning to Love Your Body
- True Facts Our Abuse-Culture Doesn’t Want You to Know
- Tips to Overcoming and Eating Disorder from Women Who Have Recovered
- How to Eat a Fear Food
- 16 Baby Steps to Help You Cope with the Pain of Perfectionism
- 10 Things to Do When You Feel Like Crap
- Why You Should NOT Self-DiagnoseSubstance Addictions:
Restrictive Eating Disorders:
- Phases of Recovery From a Restrictive ED
- Tips to Stop Restricting
- Why You Must Regain Weight to Recover
- Eating Disorder Support Groups
- Gaining Weight After Anorexia: What To Expect
- Dealing With Weight Gain
Binge & Compensate Disorders:
Binge ED/Compulsive Eating Disorders
- Food Addicts Anonymous Meeting Finder
- Overeaters Anonymous Meeting Finder
- The “I need to lose weight” Mindset with BED
- Eating Disorder Support Groups
- Daily Meditation for Compulsive Overeating/Binge EatingGeneral Anxiety:
- Coping with Suicidal Thought
- 10 Tips on How to Work Through Feelings of Social Isolation
- 8 Tips to Overcome Loneliness
- Tips On Dealing With Depression In College
- Antidepressants: Selecting one that’s right for you
- What to expect with antidepressants
Family and Friends:
THIS MAKES ME HAPPY BECAUSE IT MENTIONS ANXIETY AND POSTS LIKE THIS USUALLY DO NOT
This hit me hard. Take it to heart. Recovery is so worth it.. no matter what you’re going through, it’s worth it
Went out and didn’t die ! I always think it’s going to be worse than it ends up being